xoxo

mixed feelings

I hate you. But I still have feelings about you. I want to leave you alone. But I want to take care of you. I may ignore you. But I secretly want to talk to you all day long. I push you away. But I do that so I can stop myself from pulling you in. I’m over you. But I still love you.i guess…..

Whenever I think I’ve moved on, you do something that pulls be back loving you. I sit here trying to figure out what I feel for you. Is it love? Or is it responsibility? I don’t know, I just keep fighting myself for you. When you’re down, I want to be the one to pick you up. When you’re sad, I want to be the one you will cry in front of. Let me be the one wipe those tears away. Let me be the one to hold you. Let me be the one to tell you ‘It’s going to be okay’. Let me be your Babe and you be my Baby. Hold up! Why am I saying this? I already know you’ll never trust me. Especially with your feelings. I know I’ll end up with another broken heart. Please. No. My heart just got back together. It took all those months to TRY to forget about you. So why am I putting myself in a situation like that again? What am I? Stupid? I think I am.

I see you talking to other girls. I hear you talking to other girls. Good for you. I’m happy you’ve moved on… right ? If you’re happy, then I’m … happy ? Well, just as long as you don’t get hurt. I say ‘that’s cool’ or ‘that’s nice’ . But that was the exact opposite on what I really had in mind.

Wait, they don’t love you like I love you. Oh, you’re asking how I loved you? Well, you know, I loved you the way you never loved me.. was it worth it? did you even care?